I freaked out a bit

Every now and then everyone freaks out, and I had my regular dose of bitchy last night when I came to the realisation that I'm not really doing all that much right now. I'm not working, I don't study particularly hard (although I got my first HD on Thursday yay) and I don't even cook anymore because of how late I get home during week days.
Obviously because I'm not working, the very small nest egg I built up has very quickly vanished, and although I'm still tutoring, it's really inconsistent and usually I earn enough to pay for my weekly train ticket and that's it. Since we're all humans, we always compare ourselves to others, so naturally I went in this direction thinking, 'one of my friends is my age and she just bought a car, I don't even have my Ps yet...' and 'XXX is working as a secretary in a law firm, we graduated from high school at the same time and yet I'm unemployed...' and this list went on for quite a while.
It just seems to me that my daily routine/life is really inconvenient for me right now. I would like to be working, but I have uni during the day, with only Friday off, and at night is when I get my study/assignments done. On Saturdays I tutor, so that leaves me with Fridays and Sundays available for working. But then there's exam times, free time, meeting with friends, and getting house work done, going to the gym. I'll add now that I have only recently returned to the gym since my ankle accident which was over a month ago and has resulted in permanent tissue damage.
I've just been thinking, if I had have chosen to work full time instead of continuing to study, would I feel like my life is a bit more fulfilling? But I definitely won't be dropping out of uni, that's for sure. Plus, what I am really interested in doing after uni, working with linguistics, pretty much requires me to have a PhD in order to get a job and I'm sceptical of whether I am going to be able to do that. I know it's only first year, I've only just left high school and I'm not supposed to have done anything fantastic by now, but I just feel really behind everyone else...

I've had a very Japan oriented week

 To start this post off, I'll announce that I've made a new friend! On Thursday my Jap tute did this thing where we had people from Japan come in and we had to give them a tour of campus and other "fun" activities. My group had the lovely Kaori and omg she's so small and cute it's ridiculous. The activities were confusing but the day was fun so it worked out.
On Saturday I went with the girl I tutor, Mary, to the city for a variety of Japanese dishes as a "culture" type lesson, but really it was just an excuse to eat a lot of food.For all my stalkers, yes my hair colour has changed from the first photo to this one. I changed the blonde to a more natural tone. I like it, but it will probably fade back to the old colour just like every other time I've attempted to dye my hair.
We got to the city close to 12, and first got takoyaki from Kura, followed by meronpan from BreadTop. We did some shopping and I bought a burgundy skirt from Dotti. This entire trip, along with the shopping I did on Friday has cost me a fortune.

 Kura does the best takoyaki, seriously I haven't found anywhere else that does it as good as them, especially since they make it on the spot for you when you order, not just have some sitting around.

 Of course we did purikura as well. We followed this with Lunch at Oiden, which is next to Pepper Lunch on George Street. We both got the teriyaki salad and some chicken dish I can't remember what it's called.

 I don't think I need to say that it was delicious. But it was certainly amazing. After this we went to Kinokuniya to wrap up our Japanese excursion and I bought American Psycho. I may have bought it simply because it had an 18+ sticker on it, but that's a different story. I started reading it before I went to sleep last night and it's really creepy. There's been nothing but suggestions about the character's psychotic condition but it is really disturbing.

 This morning I woke up at 11 (ELEVEN?!) I haven't woke up that late since post-HSC... I said yesterday that I'd go for a jog when I woke up but that didn't happen. I did however go to the gym on Friday. All I've done today so far is fold some clothes, do a load of laundry and blog. And also play the new version of robot unicorn attack...
Needless to say, I have a quiz on Tuesday and a final exam on Wednesday. GO PROCRASTINATION GO!
Also I made a twitter. @kaylamedica

I'm actually reasonably on top of my uni work

I'm very slowly starting to get back into the study routine I had during the HSC (but of course a lot less intense haha). Uni has a lot more assessments a lot closer together than high school did, which took a while to adjust to and as a result my marks so far have been credits. I had a wake up call a few weeks ago when I slept in my friend who lives on campus's dorm room and woke up thinking that my assignment (which I hadn't even started) was due on that day. Of course I had a panic attack and then later realised that it was due a month later.
Since then I've been putting notes in my diary to remind me how far away an assessment is (things like one week until xxx is due) and that's helped a lot. Now I'm reasonably on top of my work. I feel like now I'm more organized I should be able to get a distinction in my next assignment which is on Tuesday.
It's been about a month since I last went to the gym, and ever since I hurt my ankle just after my birthday I've also stopped working. My tutoring students have just come off their break and my lessons started up again yesterday and today.
I have a lot more free time since I've stopped working, so that's obviously helped me get more organized and study better.
Ahh the life of a uni student.

Things I want in the future

Lately I've been giving a lot of thought as to what exactly I want to do in the future. I've already mentioned that I want to graduate uni with the ability to speak 3 foreign languages + my native English. but seriously, UNSW doesn't offer that many languages. They offer Chinese, French, German, Japanese and Korean. That is really not that much.
Initially I wanted to do Korean when I got to university because I've been told that the grammar is similar to Japanese and that I'd be able to pick it up really quickly, but then I realised that I didn't want to be restricted to only Asian languages. This was for a number of reason. So, from the limited list of languages available, I picked up German at UNSW and continued learning Japanese.

But the languages I would like to be able to speak include:
Koream
Swahili
Dutch
Swedish
Russian
If I was able to speak all of them it would mean that I could speak 8 languages - twice as many as I want to graduate with. But seriously, I doubt I'll be able to speak all of them.

If you can't tell I'm really concerned about the future LOL.  People always talk about how when they go to bed they lie there for ages and think about everything in their lives. I usually play scrabble on my phone then sleep straight away, I don't muse things over before I sleep. I used to, but then I got to the age where I would prefer sleep over pretty much everything else, and it became my priority hahaha. But on those occasions when I do muse things over (which I usually do during conversations, I don't really do it by myself, other people's opinions are just so much more interesting)

My most common dilemmas include:
Should I be more focused on getting my licence
Should I save to buy a car
Should I change my attitude on marriage (I am currently anti-marriage)
Should I study more
Should I aim higher
Should I find a more practical dream

I think I'll blog about these. This post is scheduled. I might start scheduling again because posting reguarly is just a bother ha.

I wanted to blog about the Toga Party

But I'm too lazy, the night was too long, and way too many things happened to be able to recall them all into one blog post. I've tried explaining to some of my friends what happened (it was an awesome night) but the story isn't linear, it's from multiple perspectives, and would probably sound a bit like American Pie.

So instead, Rosa has so helpfully provided me something to blog about!

11 Things you didn't know about me:
 

1. Despite the fact that I usually nag people to go to the doctors, I google diagnose myself
2. I fangirl about Game of Thrones a lot worse than Whovians or Sherlocked fangirls. It's just not as popular so I keep to myself.
3. Despite number 2. the books are thicker than encyclopedias so I really just cannot be bothered.
4. My favourite mangas are Nana and Strobe Edge.
5.As a child my favourite pets were my turtle, Charlie, and my rabbit, Dutcher. I didn't like cats/dogs much, but now if I got a pet it would be a dog.
6.I've lost 10 kilos this year. It's been an accumulation of the start of work/uni, eating less and going to the gym once every now and then HAHA
7. My favourite movies are ones that are based on alternative lifestyles, based on real life, or ones where the characters challenge their own families. One that comes to mind is Into The Wild. I also like ones that are semi historical.
8. If i graduate uni and speak less than 4 languages, I will feel like I haven't achieved anything. So far I'm doing 3 (including English), and I'm really not sure if I'll be able to study 3 foreign languages at once, because right now I'm struggling to learn vocabs. This makes me disappointed.
9.I feel like my ultimate dreams are too far fetched and that I won't achieve them.
10. Some of my favourite books are, And The Ass Saw The Angel, Perfume, Lolita, Here Be Monsters (it is the greatest children book of all time) and Roald Dahl's autobiographies.
11. I'm actually scared to go shopping right now because I haven't been in a really long time, which has enabled me to save. I don't want to relapse.

And now for Rosa's questions

1. What song are you listening to right now? Good Charlotte - misery
2. What was the last text you sent? Hahaha nah they just like my big eyes
3. What's your daily outfit, or your favourite outfit you have? Right now I'm wearing pjs... But I usually wear denim shorts and a basic shirt
4. What are you currently anticipating? Game Of Thrones S2 E2 comes out tonight...
5. How do you start conversations? I have standard ice breakers for each group of friends I have
6. Whats' one of your hobbies and why do you love it? I had more hobbies when I was younger but right now I guess I'd say languages. I've just been studying them for so long.
7. If you could eat something everyday, what would it be? eggs, there's just so many ways to cook them
8. Stuck on an island, which three people would you keep by your side until you were rescued a year later? Carl- both my best friend and survival guide, Christian Bale - who wouldn't want Batman when you're stuck on an island? and lastly I don't know. Probably a female friend willing to go camping haha.
9. Perfect day out? a long drive to an exotic destination, then a picnic.
10. Technology, love or hate it? HATE IT! TOUCH SCREENS DON'T RESPOND TO ME
11. Whats something you appreciate? I appreciate the people who helped me through high school, it really is hard growing up

and no one is going to copy this off my blog so I won't bother giving questions HAHAHA

First impressions are changing!

I said before that the stereotypes of university social life really let me down, but it's now week 3 and I guess since friends have been established there's now going to be a lot more social events! Tomorrow night I'm going to go see Sneaky Sound System at Unibar with Caity, on Saturday I'm going to Alissa's Disney themed party, next Thursday I'm going to a midnight screening of Hunger Games. Between that, I have uni on Thurs, Mon, Tues, Wed, work on Fri, Sat, Sun, and most likely Mon. AH BUSY EVERY DAY!
But seriously, I'm so pumped for the next two weeks, there's so much on I can't even keep up. Uni life is great!

How my attitude has changed over the last 48 hours

Alright so I had this Japanese assignment where we had to film ourselves saying a self introduction and upload it to Moodle (yeah we all hate Moodle). It was due on Friday at 5PM.
On Tuesday, I tried filming it but I kept stuffing up and the videos weren't assignment worthy. I tried again on Wednesday and got it first go. All good, right? So, on Thursday, I took my laptop to uni with the intention of using uniwide wifi to upload it first to Youtube then to Moodle.
But no.
Uniwide wouldn't upload more than 20% of it and then cancel. So I went home and tried there. Of course, Thursday was the day of the horrific storms and flash flooding, so the crap weather was preventing my home wifi from getting a strong signal. No worries, I said, I can still upload it Friday morning because I don't have uni.

All was going well, I woke up early, started uploading at 9AM. By 2 PM it was at 80%. Yes, that's right, 5 hours. Then my wifi signal dropped out.
At this point, I only had 3 hours to get it onto Moodle, and I had to go to tutoring very soon. So I rushed to Liverpool library to see if I could get the upload started and hopefully it would finish by the time I finished tutoring. But no, the library was going to close before my upload could finish.

From Friday morning till 2PM, I was really happy and thought I wouldn't have to stress at all. After 2 PM I was almost crying because I was so frustrated - this isn't how handing in your first assignment at uni is supposed to go. At 7 PM (I stayed at the library and talk to Jacque until this time) my attituted had turned to I really could not give a single fuck.

I guess I realised I would only lose 3% (which is a maximum of 3 marks if I got 100% so it's not really a big deal) and that all the older years really didn't care all that much if they were a day late. I guess you could compare me to the "College Senior" meme.
Friday night I got home, ate almost a whole pizza (which I have never done before) and tried to upload my video overnight while I slept.
I woke up this morning AND THE VIDEO WAS UPLOADED. It took me half an hour how to figure out how to get it on Moodle then it was finally done.

My conclusion: Uni is not as much fun as I was told it was going to be.